I Have Enough Of You In My Head

Dear Emma,

Those two words “Dear Emma” take me away to another time when we used to write to each other after Mom and Dad died. I used to tell you about my new friends and my new life. And you used to tell me about the grand time my mom and dad were having in heaven.

Truth is nothing. What you believe to be true is everything. And the main thing that I used to believe was that I would be with you forever. Forever. The reason it has taken me so long to write to you is that I see that I have been a fool. I’ve spent my life fooling myself.

Every letter I’ve ever written to you has been a love letter. How could they have been anything else? I can see now that all of them except this one were bad love letters. Bad love letters beg for love back. Good love letters ask for nothing. This, I’m pleased to announce is my first good love letter to you because there is nothing more for you to do. You’ve already done everything. I have enough of you in my head to last forever.So please don’t ever worry about me. I’m peachy. I really am. I have everything.

If I had one wish it would be that your life brings you a taste of the happiness you have brought to me. That you can feel what it’s like to love.

Your friend forever,

Will

I saw this in Tumblr and fell in love. It’s true what that letter said about bad and good love letters. When you write with pain, you worry about whether or not you’re gonna get a response. I take that from experience. But when you write with nothing but genuine love–just wanting to let that person know you love him/her–you don’t really care about receiving a written proof of his/her love too. You get my drift?

Anyway, I haven’t seen the movie (Waiting For Forever) but I’m currently DLing it.

Anxious

Looking for an affordable hotel in Singapore is quite the challenge. I’ve been scouring hotel booking sites for the past two weeks, trying to score a good deal. But more than ever, I’m anxious for this trip. Imagining myself flying back to Manila by myself gets me depressed already.

Well, at least I get to be with no one but Babe for a couple of days no? After this trip, I’ll see him again around December or January pa. I’m dead set on this. I’ll be in Singapore in a couple of months. I don’t like being away from someone I love, especially him.